Deep Thoughts

"There are some tragedies that are too big for a heart to hold, and they defy any description that makes sense. Time weaves its way through the shock, hurt and the inexpressible feelings, and one day you discover that in the process of daily survival, you have instinctively made decisions (good and bad), defined your theology, formed an opinion about God, and determined that you will either curl up and die emotionally or you will choose life. The terrifying but truthful fact is that, in choosing life, you realize it will never match the kind of life that was in your carefully thought-out plan for your future. It will force you to view people around you differently. The brokeness will challenge you to new levels of personal compassion. It will melt your pride, diminish the importance of your carfeully planned agenda, and it has the potential to develop and unshakable faith that defies rationality." - Carol J. Kent

Been thinking about choosing life, although it's the much harder decision to committ to. I believe that there is power in choosing faith in the things that are unknown, and possibly will remain so until the eternities- even when this said choosing is illogical (or rational) in my mind. It doesn't make it any easier, though. And I need that power right about now.